Richard Castor is angry, but he isn't angry at God …because he doesn't really believe in God. But you can tell he wants to be angry at someone. He wants to blame someone.
He feels life is unfair. But he isn't about to blame himself. Maybe he can believe in God for a short time …just long enough to blame Him. Of course, he knows that's absurd! So his bitterness is directed at his sister, Merrie. "So why would your loving God allow this to happen to me?"
He is scheduled to have his foot removed tomorrow. Merrie wants to tell him it is his own fault for having neglected himself, but what she really wants to focus on is not his neglect of himself, but of his relationship towards God.
Merrie knows that at the root of it all, he isn't angry. He is really sad and hurt. But he is also stubborn …real stubborn. And that turns his hurt into anger. He is like a dog, hit by a car. That's how this news about his foot has hit him. And like some injured animal, he won't let anyone get close enough to help the hurt.
Merrie feels it's best that she not be the one to talk to him. It seems like one of the biggest contradictions in this life ---that you hurt most those whom you love the most.
But even worse, is to turn against the One who loves you the very most ---our loving God.
That brings back the initial question ...the question he had asked her just the other day. Why would a loving God allow this to happen?
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